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Nashville, TN, United States
I am a mom to amazing twin girls, a wife, and I work full time. I battled infertility for 2 years and over the course of treatments, a twin pregnancy, and raising twins I managed to gain about 80 lbs. I’ve lost about 50 lbs so far and would like to lose another 50 in my quest to become a hot mama.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Baby steps...no pun intended

1. Today I haven't cried...not once
2. Today I talked with our nurse and created our calendar for our FET which will be at the beginning of December
3. Today I made an appointment with an infertility therapist to try and get out of this low funky feeling.
4. Today I made an appointment with a personal trainer for next week to whip my butt in shape.
5. Today I didn't log on to a single web site to read about FET's, success rates, stories, etc

I'm feeling accomplished.  I guess I am going to have to get through all of this in baby steps.  But damnit, I will get out of this funk.

On a different note, tomorrow we are leaving to go to Kansas for the KU homecoming.  It will be nice to get away and not think about what happened at all.  Sadly, I am looking forward to going home and packing...because it gives my idle mind something to do besides ponder.

Finally, the results or our beta came back today. Zero.  Just like I suspected.  I am glad it wasn't a chemical pregnancy because apparently you have to take more cycles off before doing a FET.  I guess that is positive news.

I probably won't blog over the weekend...I hope to not have free time on my hands. And if I do, there will be a beer or glass or wine in it!


  1. So sorry for your BFN. I really hope that the FET cycle brings you a sticky embie. I getting ready to go through FET myself. Cheer up and have a great time at KU!

  2. So glad you have stuff going on this weekend :) I find that if I'm feeling particularly low about ttc'ing, it really helps to take my mind off it with some engulfing activity!!

    I think the things you listed are AWESOME accomplishments!! I'll keep praying for you as you heal!!

  3. I'm so sorry for your BFN and that you have hit a low funk. That is understandable. But you just have to take it one day at a time.

    And thanks for stopping by my blog. I think we are neighbors (relatively).

  4. Just wanted to tell you know that I have been reading your blog, and you are in my thoughts. I hope you had a fun trip to Kansas--I'm in Olathe! Best wishes to you with the FET in December!