God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference,
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace,
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it,
Trusting that He will make all things right,
If I surrender to His Will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forver and ever in the next.
I printed this prayer to help get me through the next couple of weeks. Today there was a pregnancy announcement at work. I want so much to be happy for her, but I can't help but burn inside. I don't want to be the person I've become. I can hardly recognize this jealous, hateful person I see in the mirror anymore and it sickens me. Where is my former self? Where is the happy go lucky girl that loved life and din't cry daily. I miss her.