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Nashville, TN, United States
I am a mom to amazing twin girls, a wife, and I work full time. I battled infertility for 2 years and over the course of treatments, a twin pregnancy, and raising twins I managed to gain about 80 lbs. I’ve lost about 50 lbs so far and would like to lose another 50 in my quest to become a hot mama.

Friday, October 16, 2009

God grant me the serenity...

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference,
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace,
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it,
Trusting that He will make all things right,
If I surrender to His Will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forver and ever in the next.

I printed this prayer to help get me through the next couple of weeks. Today there was a pregnancy announcement at work.  I want so much to be happy for her, but I can't help but burn inside. I don't want to be the person I've become.  I can hardly recognize this jealous, hateful person I see in the mirror anymore and it sickens me.  Where is my former self?  Where is the happy go lucky girl that loved life and din't cry daily.  I miss her.

2 comments:

  1. Hey- I have had a crazy last week, but I have been praying for you as you heal emotionally!!

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  2. I know how you feel. *Hugs* Just keep praying hard and you will get your old self back.

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