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Nashville, TN, United States
I am a mom to amazing twin girls, a wife, and I work full time. I battled infertility for 2 years and over the course of treatments, a twin pregnancy, and raising twins I managed to gain about 80 lbs. I’ve lost about 50 lbs so far and would like to lose another 50 in my quest to become a hot mama.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Hello again bleeding

Whyyyyyyy can't it just stop.  Now my mind is racing.  I've been wondering for 2 days why I haven't had any symptoms whatsoever. No sore BB's, no MS, not exhausted...nothing.  Then this morning I start bleeding (again).  I can't stop stressing.  This is ridiculous.  This is supposed to be one of the happiest times of my life but I can't seem to get out from underneath the shadow of losing these babies.


So I continue to pray to St. Gerard and hope that both of my beans are growing and have healthy heartbeats tomorrow.


Prayer:
O almighty and Everlasting God Who through the operation of the Holy Christ, 
didst prepare the body and soul of the glorious Virgin Mary to be a worthy dwelling place of Thy divine Son; 
and, through the operation of the same Holy Ghost, didst sanctify Saint John the Baptist, while still in his mother’s womb;
hearken to the prayers of Thy humble servant who implore thee, through the intercession of Saint Gerard, to protect me; 
that it may be cleansed by the saving water of baptism and, after a Christian life on earth, it may with its mother, attain everlasting bliss in Heaven. 
Amen.



25 comments:

  1. Emily ~ I know you don't want to hear this, but as your body adjusts to the hormones, the symptoms can come and go. I know you are scared, and have every right to be, but for right now, for today, for this moment, try to just love those babies.

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  2. OH Emily, you have been in my prayers! I hope your little ones are safe and sound!!

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  3. I'm so sorry you keep having to deal with this and the fear it brings. I am praying right along with you. ((HUGS))

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  4. Nooooo, Not again! I'm sorry. Is there any way you could get the u/s moved up a day?

    ((HUGS))

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  5. I agree with Mrs. Higrens, get the u/s moved to today for peace of mind if you can.

    I am sorry you are bleeding again. I think you are fine though, I can feel it with every ounce of me!

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  6. I bleed and bleed too until they finally checked and up'ed my progestrone AND I had a subchorionic hematoma. It does turn something that is supposed to be such a happy time into a time of horrible worry. Thanking about you and praying for you.

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  7. I'm so sorry that your body has to keep scaring you! I would have freaked out too!!! Hang in there.

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  8. ((((((HUGS)))) and prayers to you!!

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  9. UGH! Stupid bleeding!!! It's torture. I am very confident that it's nothing to be worried about, but I know you will still worry because I sure would be. I'm sure I've mentioned that when I had my bleeding spell, they told me to start worrying if I was going through a pad per hour (um, yeah, I'd worry!!) and had severe cramps - not just the regular crampiness that is normal. I am sending you lots of blood-free prayers!

    I wear a St. Gerard medal everyday. It was bought for me at the Vatiacn and is blessed by the Pope. I was raised Catholic but am definitely not practicing these days except for when I pray to St. Gerard.

    Hang in there XOXO

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  10. I didn't bleed, and I was still crazy worried for much of the first trimester...it gets better each week, and especially each milestone. I also had symptoms come and go sporadically--that's definitely normal!

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  11. Sweetie I am thinking of you and praying for your and your babies...you deserve to be relaxed and as stress free as possible not going through all of this! I hope tomorrow's u/s will tell you that all is looking great and that your twins are growing and developing as they should be. About the symptoms, mine come and go too.. if my boobs hurt less I freak out, I have had no real m/s so that makes me think that there could be something wrong but then we are all different and like the other ladies said, symptoms come and go!! You are just being a GREAT mommy to your babies already!!!

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  12. relax and try to breathe sweetie...you wont feel pregnant ALL of the time in the beginning...i know its super hard to be calm these first few weeks and the hormones don't help with making you feel any more relaxed.
    all i can tell you is that by this point, percentages are on your side that all is well.
    and you get to see your babies tomorrow!!
    try to enjoy every minute-especially the minutes you don't feel sick! and try not to be so worried. bleeding is so common in IVF pregnancies. :o)
    xoxo

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  13. Praying to St Gerard for you. I prayed every day with Bobby and Maya's pregnancy; I truly believe in the power of prayer. I will add my voice to yours.

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  14. Ugh, how stressful! Keeping you in my thoughts.

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  15. Im so sorry you have to deal with this :( Ugh bleeding sucks. It's not always a bad sign though, so keep your hopes up! :) I am sure your 2 little loves are ok. Its awful isnt it...that we cant even enjoy a pregnancy because of all the worries :( Good luck tomorrow. Ill say a prayer for you. :)

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  16. Adding my prayers, too. I am sorry you're going through this again. I hope it ends soon. =(

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  17. Thinking about you saying a prayer for you today. Here is a scripture that a lady shared with me when I first became pregnant. It helped me get through those tough times.

    Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall. Psalm 55:22.

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  18. Praying for you today!!!!

    I nominated you for an award on my blog, if you want to check it out! Hoping you see and hear two strong heartbeats!

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  19. I wanted to let you know we found the heartbeat with our doppler at 10 weeks faintly, but then really well at 11 weeks. I know everyone is different, but hopefully you can hear it around then. It's a little more difficult now at 14 weeks because we have to chase the baby down all the time. So it requires a little more patience! :)

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  20. Hey I hope everything at the u/s went alright- have been praying for you!!

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  21. please know that i am worried you havent updated since oyur appt, i have had 13 miscarriages and multiple births 2 times, it has takem us 10 years to get here where we are, trust me when i think there is nothing you can say to me that i couldnt understand, and know that i will be here if you just need to vent, surse the world by or just cry in a state of confusion or glee...just felt today weould be a very good day to remind you that i can take your pain but i will be more than happy to share your pain, fear if it will help.

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  22. sorry for the horrible spelling in my last message, seems that my keyboard is typing off letters if i push s i got a y....hummm too many twinkies while blogging i guess!

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