Whyyyyyyy can't it just stop. Now my mind is racing. I've been wondering for 2 days why I haven't had any symptoms whatsoever. No sore BB's, no MS, not exhausted...nothing. Then this morning I start bleeding (again). I can't stop stressing. This is ridiculous. This is supposed to be one of the happiest times of my life but I can't seem to get out from underneath the shadow of losing these babies.
So I continue to pray to St. Gerard and hope that both of my beans are growing and have healthy heartbeats tomorrow.
O almighty and Everlasting God Who through the operation of the Holy Christ,
didst prepare the body and soul of the glorious Virgin Mary to be a worthy dwelling place of Thy divine Son;
and, through the operation of the same Holy Ghost, didst sanctify Saint John the Baptist, while still in his mother’s womb;
hearken to the prayers of Thy humble servant who implore thee, through the intercession of Saint Gerard, to protect me;
that it may be cleansed by the saving water of baptism and, after a Christian life on earth, it may with its mother, attain everlasting bliss in Heaven.