I want to start this blog by expressing the way I feel about my IF girls. I feel like I am abandoning everyone. I feel guilty posting about my symptoms. I feel like I am slapping everyone in the face that still isn't pregnant by still blogging. It's so hard to be excited when I know so many of my friends are here and still aren't pregnant. I remember the way that felt. When others got pregnant...I was really happy for them, but it hurt at the same time. I don't know how I can not feel guilty for finally being pregnant. I don't know what else I can blog about since this pregnancy is the culmination of 2 years, lots of tears, and countless dollars. I hope that my fellow IF bloggers don't feel that I have abandoned them and won't still support their journey. I know it's hard to follow my blog now and I accept that. I will pray for all of the girls that have supported me on this journey and end this part of my blog by saying I will never forget my roots. I know how painful this journey is, and I will never forget it.
Last night I slept for 6 hours (which is pretty typical), woke up, and 30 minutes later I am exhausted. I've been dragging my tail at work all morning. I cannot get over how tired I am. I know everyone says "I was tired all the time when I was pregnant" but this is like a debilitating kind of tired. The kind of tired where I could fall asleep on my keyboard at work and not wake up until the day is done!
I have also started wearing sports bras to bed because it feels like a small unicorn is jumping around inside my boobs poking holes. If it's not that then possibly a small leprauchaun comes into my room and whacks my boobs with a baseball bat. Either way, they HURT!
I feel like morning sickness is slowly starting to creep in. I have a dull nauseated feeling that sits at the base of my stomach all day. No vomiting yet. Wonder if I'll be one of the "lucky ones"
Sadly, I love it all. I love being so tired I could cry. I love that my boobs feel like a car ran them over. I love the fact that I gagged while picking up a dog turd last night. Most people would whine and complain about how much it sucks, but I am eating it up. I love it because after all of this time I am finally pregnant and having all of these nasty symptoms that are getting worse with time means I am still pregnant!