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Nashville, TN, United States
I am a mom to amazing twin girls, a wife, and I work full time. I battled infertility for 2 years and over the course of treatments, a twin pregnancy, and raising twins I managed to gain about 80 lbs. I’ve lost about 50 lbs so far and would like to lose another 50 in my quest to become a hot mama.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

IComLeavWe-Newbie

Let's see, as a newbie I guees a brief synopsis is in order.  DH and I have been infertiles for a little over 2 years now. Very sad.  It's been a heartbreaking experience that NOBODY understands.  If I have to listen to one more story about "So and so stopped trying and the next week...guess what!  They got pregnant by themselves."  You know what probably happened...So and so got so tired of everyone telling their stupid stories about other people that just "got pregnant" or "adopted and then got pregnant" or "just went on vacation and got pregnant" that they said fuck it...I am going to do another round of IVF and not tell anyone.  Enter stage left-DH and I.

This is our 3rd attempt at IVF.  1 Fresh cycle that was a BFN, 1 frozen cycle that was cancelled after 2 months of meds because my lining sucks, and 1 frozen cycle that I am currently in the 2ww.  After shedding so many tears and having to tell SO many of our family and friends that yet another cycle has failed...we decided to say "fuck it." It is none of their business and when we have good news to share, they will know then.  We both have terribly supportive families but listening to them ask day in and day out if there is "any news" is just too much.  So instead...we are telling them we are taking a break due to the purchase of our new house.  

WHich segues into the next topic...we just bought a new house.  On transfer day actually.  DH and I are super happy about it and so ready to move in!  Now we just have to sell our townhome. ::bites nails::  Hopefully January 18th will have been a good day when I get my BFP!    I still believe that a BFP is like a unicorn....or lipstick lesbians.  You want to believe they are real, but they really aren't.

And for all of my visual followers....here is a time line in pictures:

Let's try to have a baby


6 months, no baby



Let's see an RE



RE is a dumbass



Let's try clomid



3 rounds of Clomid and 2 IUI's later, still no baby



Let's try injects!



2 rounds of injects and 2 IUI's later, still no baby



Let's try IVF!



Let's pay for IVF out of pocket



IVF Cyles 1 and 2 fail:



FET #2 (Please God!!!)



12 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your frustration, but this blog had me laughing my rear-end off. I'm so hoping that your BFP is right around the corner...

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  2. OMG, that second to last picture was hilarious! I mean, ahem, it's a tragedy that some kids would do that. Not funny at all. Anyway, happy ICLW and good luck on getting through the 2WW!

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  3. Hi, I am new to your blog and in the midst of my first IVF cycle. This post made me laugh! I am already at the point where I just want people to mind their own business after 5 failed IUI's and am not looking forward to all of the questions in a few weeks. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!!

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  4. Wow, that was freaking hilarious! So sorry you've gone through all this but at least you still have your sense of humor! --mrs.cam from SC

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  5. Love it, Emily!! You make us all laugh despite the sad topic that binds us together.

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  6. Thanks girls! All I have left is laughter! And crudeness.

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  7. Thanksin for making me laugh today! ILCW!

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  8. thank you emily...i have everything crossed for you!

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  9. ICLW - Your picture timeline cracked me up! I am totally with you on the fuck it part. We are adopting and have heard all kinds of comments under the sun. Many times I just want to tell them to f off and it is none of their damn business. Good luck with your latest FET. Sending you good vibes! Take care.

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  10. Congrats on the house. Totally get the unicorn thing but here's hoping you see one!

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  11. Hope this cycle is the one!!! Congrats on the house!

    ICLW
    http://daega99-arewethereyet.blogspot.com/

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  12. Ohhhh what a journey you have been on in such a short amount of time BUT yet you still tell it with grace and most of all HUMOUR!!! I'm sat here laughing my ass off at your timeline with pics, absolutely brilliant!!

    Hope you get your BFFP soon and congrats on the house!

    ICLW
    Rach
    www.thegalwho.wordpress.com

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