I am so tired I could cry. Literally. My eyes are burning so bad. The only thing I want to do right now is lay my head on my desk and take a nap. I have also been insanely hungry since yesterday. I don't remember feeling any of this at my last transfer, but then again I had such severe OHSS that I probably could have been hit by a bus and not felt it.
I am finding it SOOO hard to be positive. I keep thinking of test time and seeing just one line. I don't know how to overcome it and the idea of it is just so anxiety provoking to me. I hate this sensation. My beta is 1 week from today but that seems like an eternity.
My sister is coming to visit today through sunday so hopefully that will make the time pass faster. DH and I have elected not to share with any of our family or most of our friends that we did another embryo transfer. The let down of the last failed cycle was just too much for me to handle. I thought it would be easier if this doesn't work to get to mourn in private. Hopefully I won't be mourning. Hopefully I'll be celebrating.
January is going to be a good month damn it!