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Nashville, TN, United States
I am a mom to amazing twin girls, a wife, and I work full time. I battled infertility for 2 years and over the course of treatments, a twin pregnancy, and raising twins I managed to gain about 80 lbs. I’ve lost about 50 lbs so far and would like to lose another 50 in my quest to become a hot mama.

Monday, May 10, 2010

18 weeks and Mothers day

I don't want to write too much about Mother's Day....it's one of those bitter sweet holidays.  I give thanks to God everyday that I am pregnant.....but infertility has robbed me of the ability to sit back and enjoy this mother's day and know that next mothers day I will have 2 beautiful children to celebrate.  It has robbed me of the ability to not feel deep sorrow for my fellow IFers on this day.  And it has robbed me of my ability to not feel sheer guilt on this day.

All that being said, I took the holiday with a grain of salt.  My wonderful husband bought me a "Not mother's day" flower bouquet that was beautiful and my mom and dad sent me a "Mom to be" flower basket.  It still doesn't feel real.

And now for the 18 weeks quiz:

18 weeks

How far along: 18 weeks, 4 days

Total Weight Gain: 17.5....right on par with where I should be but I still feel like a cow.  I know it will all be worth it if my babies are born big and strong.

Symptoms: I am feeling pretty fabulous.  The back pain is starting to get the best of me and making it really difficult to move around like I did before I was pregnant.  God bless my husband for helping me get up and off the couch!

Stretch Marks: Yes.  They are in full effect.  I have 3 small ones on the bottom of my tummy.  It's ok...it's not like a 2 piece is in my future.

Sleep: I am sleeping great.  Too great in fact.  I actually make it all the way through most nights without having to get up and use the bathroom.  The downside is my bladder hurts so bad when I wake up!  

Best Moment Last Week: Getting the glider ordered for the nursery and buying the second mattress.  The nursery is now fully outfitted with furniture.

Movement: Yes-Still nothing consistent.  I won't feel them for a few days (and panic) and then I'll get a little flutter or two.  I am still excited to feel full on kicks and movements consistently.

Food Cravings: None.

What I Miss: A good glass of wine.  We had a house warming party this weekend and NA beer just wasn't hitting the spot.

What am I looking forward to:  Our anatomy scan on May 28th and our first baby shower in Kansas on May 22nd.  I can't believe we are having a baby shower already!!  It makes it feel even more real.  We had to do this one this early though because I am not supposed to be flying after 20 weeks....and this one will be just a little past 20 weeks.

Milestones: Having all of the nursery furniture ordered/in our house.

How is Daddy? Awesome.  It is so fun to talk about the "what-ifs" together.  We laid in bed a good part of Sunday morning and talked about all of the fun what ifs.  It's so fun to imagine our life with our two babies.

18 weeks ( and if you want to spare your eyes...I suggest stopping reading at this point):


  1. Looking good!

    What glider are you getting? That's the next thing DH and I need to get cracking on - hopefully next weekend we'll be able to brave BRU...

  2. You're so cute!!! Happy Mother's day!! You are a mother with those two babies growing in your belly!!! It's REAL!! (I totally get the IF guilt...it sucks but it's part of us now.)

    Can't wait to see nursery pics!!!

  3. What a beautiful belly!!! You look fabulous!!!

  4. Emily, you look fantastic! How exciting you get to have a baby shower already!!! Can't wait to see what you get!

  5. You look great! I love reading about a fellow twin mommy ;-).

  6. I know!! When will this feel real and when will the guilt go away? I still feel like an imposter. I accepted the flowers DH gave me graciously but couldn't seem to be excited yesterday...
    You look AWESOME! I'm so excited for your scan!!! Are you finding out what they are or is that going to be a special suprise?

  7. Yay! You look great!

    I know what you mean about mother's day. It is such a bittersweet day to us IF'ers.

    Oh, and btw I think I am going to steal this quiz! ;-)

  8. Your baby bump is really starting to pop! Enjoy it because you will miss it! I sure miss mine. And happy "not mother's day!" :)

  9. You look adorable!! You're just glowing!!

  10. Congrats! You're looking fabulous!!!

  11. You look great! I feel ya, on the back pain! I swear one of the babies has his foot jammed in my vertabrae! I cant wait to see your nursery pics!

  12. You look beautiful girl!! Well done on getting your nursery all ready( I haven't even started!!) you are so organised. I cannot wait to hear all about your first baby shower!!

  13. Your look amazing!!!! I can hardly wait till the 28th to find out what your having!

  14. I don't call myself an IF survivor, but I am a mom now because of adoption. My son is 3 now, and I still feel guilty when facebooking/blogging about him (because of friends that are still battling IF). And enev though I 'enjoy' Mothers Day now, it is still weird. Boy, IF surely does rob us of alot. I sometimes miss the pre-IF/ pre-TTC girl I used to be:-) You are beautiful!! That's the sweetest babies bump I've ever seen!!!