So the reality is sinking in finally. Perhaps it's my expanding waistline or the fact that we just saw our beans on u/s. The reality is, we are having twins. Another reality is daycare is going to cost us a fucking arm and leg!!!!!
Yes...perhaps I am jumping the gun, but I am already calling daycares. The daycare at my job has a wait list over a year long...so I can't really afford to sit around with my thumb in my ass.
So far the rates have ranged from $700 to $800 per month per child. In case you are bad at math...I'll break that down for you. That is $1400 to $1600 per month for child care!!!!!
So at this point many of you are probably saying "Why don't you just stay home with them." Well for starters...I make more money than that per month...so pure math says that's a dumb idea. Also....I enjoy feeling like I bring something to our table (ahem...mortgage payments and food). I don't think I could sit at home all day long. And I am sure some of you are saying "you just wait and see." Well I have a few choice words for you. (I am obviously in a fun pregnancy induced pissy state).
So now I am feeling this overwhelming feeling that we can't afford this...that after spending so much money on conceiving this two beautiful miracles, we are going to start living paycheck to paycheck. I know many people do it...we are not one of those families. We eat out when we want, we go on vacations when we want, we buy whatever we need a the store. Am I going to have to live on, dare I say it, a budget???
In other news...I finally sacked up and told my boss. My belly is starting to give me away and my shirt today isn't doing me any favors. I seriously look like I am 4-5 months pregnant. I am sure lots of it is bloating....but I feel huge! Once I am "out of the closet" so to speak, I'll feel like I can embrace the bump....but until then I will uncomfortably try to suck it in and wear a "Yes I am gaining weight" grin as people gaze and wonder.