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Nashville, TN, United States
I am a mom to amazing twin girls, a wife, and I work full time. I battled infertility for 2 years and over the course of treatments, a twin pregnancy, and raising twins I managed to gain about 80 lbs. I’ve lost about 50 lbs so far and would like to lose another 50 in my quest to become a hot mama.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Feeling less like a crazy betch...

So for a while I could not stand to see my friends pregnancy updates on Facebook and Myspace. So like a total crazy person, i went in and deleted all of these people from my friend lists. I don't know what has come over me, but lately I feel a calming feeling that has helped me to look at these things online and see these women in public. I think for the first time, I am so sure that IVF is going to bless us with a baby, that I don't feel jealousy anymore. It's an interesting feeling to come full circle, because I have been living with this jealousy since we started TTC. I'm sure I will feel differently when I am all hopped up on hormones, but for now I am enjoying this feeling!

In other news, I realized today that I CAN'T have it all. As some of you know, I have been working on my Master's degree this past year as a Nurse Practitioner in Psychiatric Medicine. Well this year, my school schedule just doesn't work with my work schedule. I was crushed over the idea of having to withdraw from school. So I decided to explore a few job opportunities that offered less money but more flexibility. I had an interview today and was just offered the position a few hours ago. One caveat: I would be taking a 25K salary cut. This was the first time that I realized that nothing was more important to me at this moment in my life than having a beautiful healthy baby with my husband. So long story short...I have made a lot of revelations today and I am feeling pretty good going into my very first IVF cycle.

4 comments:

  1. I think I am one of the 10 people on the planet that isn't on facebook, but I have heard that everyone on there is pregnant or has kids, so that is sufficient to keep me away! Ha! I sure hope that your good feeling about IVF is the real deal!!!

    That is really awesome that you received the job offer with more flexibility!!! You must be good :) Isn't it crazy the sacrifices we're already making for our kids? :)

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    http://rain-is-raining.blogspot.com/

    Cheers,
    Rain

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  3. Thanks for stopping by my blog.

    I hear you on the FB thing--I don't delete those friends, but I do "hide" them--I just don't want to randomly hear those updates.

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  4. I have taken to hiding them too Lucy. Just can't deal with it!

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