My hubby is out of town for his first business trip since the girls were born. I was so blessed to have him stay in town for as long as I did after they were born. I'd say on average he travels about once a month. He's gone for 4 days and I've been dreading this trip for a few weeks now. So far so good though. Let's hope I can maintain a glimmer of sanity towards the end of the 4th day.
On a positive note, both of the girls have slept through the night for 2 nights in a row. While completely unlikely, it would be really nice if they could continue that streak while there daddy is out of town.
I would also like to get some feedback from my fellow bloggers. Since the girls were born I have had some pretty unrealistic fears that I can't seem to shake. Before I describe these I want to point out that I am in NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM thinking about hurting my babies. I always seem to think the worst no matter what I am doing. For example, If I am walking down the stairs with one of them I imagine falling and crushing them. If they are doing tummy time I think that I might trip and squash them. If I am cooking, I think that they may fall in the oven (even though I've never once cooked while holding one of my babies). I also keep having a reoccurring nightmare/thought that my house is going to get broken in to and someone is going to steal my babies and drive away with them. In talking with a friend this past weekend she said she went through the same thing and her doctor put her on Lexapro (which she swears by). I have never thought that I was dealing with any postpartum issues, but now I wonder if my weird thoughts are actually abnormal. I am pretty opposed to taking anti-depressants because I don't think they are a cure all...especially if there isn't anything actually wrong. What are your thoughts on this?