So I have breastfed for the last time. I've decided that the amount of milk I am making is no longer worth it in relation to the amount of time it takes to pump. I LOVE breastfeeding my daughters even though I couldn't provide them with much. It was such an amazing experience to have them at my chest and be able to nourish them. But now they are taking 6oz each and on a good session I can only pump 3 oz. The problem is, when I breastfeed one, by the time I go to give them a bottle they have tired themselves out....so breastfeeding is becoming a defeating task for my girls.
I don't know why I am grieving the inability to breastfeed so much. I am welling up with tears thinking about the fact that I am wearing a sports bra to compress my chest and dry up my little bit of milk. It feels like failure I guess.
I am fully aware that I am overreacting. I just never imagined that this choice would be so difficult!