I am so blessed to have my two beautiful daughters. Words cannot describe how grateful I am for these miracles. But PCOS has taken something else from me...the ability to breastfeed.
After struggling for weeks and thinking "just wait, your milk supply will come in," it turns out it won't. I spoke with a lactation consultant who suggested that my infertility is likely the reason for my low milk supply. After looking it up on the internet, it seems that this is a common problem with women with PCOS.
I tried all of the supplements, teas, power pumping, nursing on demand....you name it, I tried it.
Currently all I am able to pump is about 1oz....2 if I am lucky. The only time I get more than that is at 3:30 in the morning. I'll get about 3oz during that pump.
I am still nursing the girls. I nurse one baby at each feeding...alternating every time. So I will breastfeed which ever babies turn it is...then give her a bottle...then pump. The whole process takes about an hour to an hour and a half. It is so frustrating to do all of that and know that I am giving my girls so little breast milk.
Society has made this whole expreience quite difficult and traumatic for me. I have been made to feel like I am not doing enough. Like I am not trying hard enough. It sucks. There is nothing more that I want than to be able to breast feed my girls and I feel like that precious experience is being taken from me.
So for now I will continue to pump and give them the very little breast milk that I can produce, but at some point I will have to decide when the output is not worth the payoff. Right now their bottles are about 1/3 to 1/2 breast milk...but as we continue to increase the amount of formula, this amount becomes less and less.
I'd love to hear from anyone that had low supply issues and how long you tried to breastfeed for!