Ok Ok.....I suck at blogging.....

So obviously the result of my first injects cycle was a BFN...otherwise I'd have things to blog about. I will really try to be better about it.

Anyways, I have been in a complete and utter funk. The day after DH and I had a negative test, one of my friends, which god bless his heart (and by the way...you will soon figure out that "God bless his/her heart" is how us Tennessee folk begin any statement in which we talk bad about someone) is such an asshole. He and his wife knew the struggle we have been having....all of the heartache, $$, and tears we have poured into trying to start a family. Well after all of that, he calls me (as his very first person to tell) and says… “Guess what….I’m going to be a daddy.” I really tried to grin and bear it and be happy for them….but hot shit….she was on the damn pill and they were barely trying. (In her defense, they put her on the pill so that she could ovulate normally). I had a COMPLETE melt down…..I mean come on….literally 24 hours after I found out that $3,000, 15 or so needle pokes, 6 ultrasounds, and at least 5 different people with their hands in my lady business later we aren’t pregnant you call me first to tell me this. If I were a rational person (which I’m not) I’d be elated that he told me before his wife even went in for a blood test to tell me. Then not 2 weeks later another friend our age announced her pregnancy on facebook! Needless to say I blocked all of the pregnant people form my facebook. I guess that makes me a gigantic child, but I have realized throughout all of this that the number one person I need to look out for is me….and listening to how nice it is to sleep through the night while you know your little bean is in your womb is really not helping me in the least.

Whew…Ok, now to catch everyone up.

So after my cycle AF finally showed up and I went in for my baseline thinking we could jump right into our next cycle. WRONG. I had 16 cysts between my two ovaries and they were so enlarged I was forbidden from doing any physical activities in fear of my ovaries twisting. Yay…so not only did I put on 8 lbs from this cycle…now I have to take a month off from exercise…the one thing that has kept me sane. So I now went from playing with the 150’s to tipping over 170. EHHHHHHHHHHHH. Sucks. So they put me on birth control pills and told me to come back when AF starts again.

Which brings us to now….I am now on CD8….went for my E2 and U/S yesterday. E2 was up to 221 but I have no measureable follicles. I go back this Saturday…so hopefully I’ll have something to report.

Anyways….my hope is to blog more about life and try to focus less on getting pregnant….because it’s making me CRAZY.

Talk to you later!

And for a good laugh:

Making a baby is sexy!

So if you read my previous post...you guessed right. We decided to go ahead and do the IUI despite the increased risk of multiples. I am SOOOO glad we decided to now because we found out that DH's counts are down quite a bit from the last time.

All in all, the whole processes wasn't bad at all. We arrived at the clinic at 9am. DH did his thing. They brought both of us back to an exam room just after 10:30. Two nurses were in the room with us. They went over the sperm counts. I was really down over them...in hindsight I shouldn't have shown my poor husband that I was upset...I know it was just a blow to his manhood...no pun intended. There were 0% type A and only 4.4 million total. I asked her if it was even possible to get pregnant with no type As and she said it happens all the time. It was relieving to hear that.

So I assumed the position. The nurse put the speculum in and then the catheter. It was a totally differnet experience that my first IUI...not painful at all. The cath slipped right into my cervix and she put the baby batter in there. Didn't even cause cramping. The set an alarm for 15 minutes. When the time was up, I got dressed and we were out of there.

I have realized throughout this cycle that the next time I hear someone who is pregnant complain about how much morning sickness sucks...or how swollen their feet are...i might just deck them. People have no idea how unmagical the journey to conceive a baby is when you are an infertility patient! I just don't want to hear it! I will without a doubt relish every bout of morning sickness and every kick to my bladder when I get pregnant!

First Cycle of Injectibles

Well after 3 failed rounds of Clomid, we have moved on to injectibles. I started this cycle with a hysterosalpinogram (HSG)....umm....really not fun. It was not quite as bad as I thought it would be, but it was like an extremely intense pain that lasted for maybe 2 minutes when the dye spilled into the uterus. Thank God...it's all clear!! Yay.

Now to use the injectible meds, they made me take an FSH class at our fertility clinic to learn all about the different types of drugs and how to stick myself with a needle. Not terribly enlightening for $100.

I decided, naturally, to go with the most expensive option-the Follistim pen. It seemed only logical since this was the only option that did not require mixing of drugs and had a safety mechanism built in which would prevent me from dumping $1000 of medication on to the floor.

I ordered my first pen through Metro drugs. It came out to be the cheapest-$900 for the 900IU pen and a shot of Ovidrel.

I started the shots on CD3at 75IU. Given that I have PCOS, they didn't want to hyperstim me...which give how much OHSS sounds like it sucks, I was ok with that. Here are the results of the subsequent E2's and Ultrasounds:

CD3 [baseline]- E2=39
Follicles=none
Dosage=75IU

CD8- E2=165
Follicles=nothing over 10mm on either side
Dosage=100IU

CD11-E2 187
Follicles=7mm on left
Dosage=150IU

CD14-E2=1314
Follicles= Right-10mm, 10mm, 12mm
Left-14mm
Dosage=112.5IU

CD15-E2=2788
Follicles=Right-17mm, 14mm, 10mm, 10mm
Left-14mm, 10mm

On CD 15 the clinic called with news from my doctor. She said she is very concerend that we may conceive multiples with this cycle. They gave us the option of cancelling the cycle or triggereing that night and proceeding with the IUI tomorrow (Thrusday). You'll never guess what we decided............