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Nashville, TN, United States
I am a mom to amazing twin girls, a wife, and I work full time. I battled infertility for 2 years and over the course of treatments, a twin pregnancy, and raising twins I managed to gain about 80 lbs. I’ve lost about 50 lbs so far and would like to lose another 50 in my quest to become a hot mama.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Sucky blogger

To say I have sucked as a blogger would be an understatement.  I always despised all of those girls who's blogs I followed and then they dropped off the face of the planet as soon as their babies were born.  It made me feel used as a "follower."  I now understand why it happens.  I sometimes don't have to time to get a shower none the less blog.  So for being pissed off at those blogger, I apologize.  I get it now.

This are finally starting to get into a groove in our house.  The girls are getting SO big.  I find myself staring at them wondering where my little 4 lb baby went daily. Both girls are now nearly 10lbs and hitting so many milestones.  Both are smiling, Harper is laughing, Stella is learning to play with toys.  It's amazing.

I am soaking in my last month of maternity leave.  I am so grateful to be able to take 4 months off but I am dreading going back.  I find myself having mini panic attacks when I think about it.  I would give anything to be a stay at home mom...but that is just not a possibility.  I find myself becoming very resentful of our friends that are able to make that life choice.

Both of the girls are getting close to sleeping through the night.  We feed them at 8:30 and put them down by 9.  They usually sleep until about 1 or 2 and I will get up and put the pacifiers back in their mouths.  They usually make it until 4am and then I will bring them into bed with us and they will sleep a little longer.  Our bed is like baby ambien.  The second they get in it they are dead asleep again.  The only problem is I find that having a baby sleep next to me makes me a leaky milk machine.  This morning, I woke up to find Harper gnawing on my boob through my shirt.  Ravenous beasts!

Breastfeeding is still an uphill "why the hell am I doing this" battle.  I am pumping between 2-6 oz each time I pump so I am making enough for one full bottle for each girl right now.  They are drinking about 180ml (or 6oz)...so when I divide up my milk they get about 1 oz of breast milk and 5 oz of formula.  I guess something is better than nothing.  I just can't seem to stop even though I despise pumping.  We'll see what happens when I return to work.

Here are a few pics of the girls:


  1. I didn't realize that our girls were all born on the same day. Probably because I was too busy giving birth and then being sleep deprived!! :) Maddie has the same number stickers and I am posting hers soon as well. They grow so fast!!

    Your girls are adorable!!!

  2. They are beautiful :)

    Dont worry... It will get easier with blogging eventually... :) Babies grow up way too fast... Take the time you have to be with them (and we'll all be here when you have a bit more MamaTime)

  3. They are so cute!!! I agree with time being a problem and I only have 1 baby. But things are finally getting easier now that we're entering the 3rd month. :)

  4. They are so cute, i love that last picture, that smile is awesome! Blogging will get a little easier, I probably get to it 2 times a month and thats good enough for me. Don't feel bad, we all understand!

  5. They are just beautiful!!! I completely understand about the blogging! There was no way I could have done it with one infant, much less two!

  6. They're gorgeous! I'm a crappy blogger too, there just isn't time. Going back to work is tough, but it's nice to feel like yourself again and be out in the world. Of course now that I've done that for a week, I'm ready to be home again! Thanks for the update!!

  7. I feel the same way! It takes all my time and energy just to make it through the day! Your girls are so adorable! It doesn't sound like your night times are to bad, we are struggling with ours right now! Glad to hear you are doing good!

  8. Aww they are getting so big! Cutiepatooties!