My little 4-eyes
Hearing your kid isn’t “perfect” is something that no parent ever wants to hear. So when I began to notice Stella’s eyes crossing about 3 months ago, I told myself it was all in my head. I mentioned it to my husband and he sort of agreed that maybe they were “a little” crossed. Over the next few weeks I thought it was getting worse (or I had just grown more sensitive to it). About a month later a therapist that comes to the girl’s daycare to work with another little boy left me a hand written note saying she had noticed her eyes were crossed and she would be happy to do therapy with her. Shit. That meant that it was not all in my head. My perfect daughter actually has crossed eyes.
Fast forward to yesterday. We had Stella's ophthalmology specialist appointment. They brought us back and dilated her eyes. It was interesting because the doctor showed us how if you put your hand in front of her crossed eye she doesn’t even notice, but if you put your hand in front of her straight eye she swats your hand away. We came to learn that she is cross eyed because she is so far sighted she is essentially using only one eye to see and the crossed eye is trying to compensate.
The doctor looked in her eyes and got a prescription. She also placed two lenses over my eyes to show me how she sees. It broke my heart. She literally can only see large shapes. Everything is so blurry.
We took her prescription and ordered her glasses. The doctor says the vision loss she has experienced is reversible at this time. We hope to see her eyes getting straighter over the course of a few weeks. We have a follow-up appointment in 6 weeks. At that time if her eye is still crossed she will have to wear a patch. And at the end of the road if the patch cannot correct it she will need to have surgery.
Here are the glasses we ordered:
I know it seems so insignificant, but my heart is breaking. My perfect little girl has never really seen my face. She will never look just like her sister because she will have glasses. People are going to stare at her. Kids are going to take her glasses from her. Her script is so strong that her eyes will look HUGE.
These all seem like such superficial things to be worried about, but as a parent I can’t help it.