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Nashville, TN, United States
I am a mom to amazing twin girls, a wife, and I work full time. I battled infertility for 2 years and over the course of treatments, a twin pregnancy, and raising twins I managed to gain about 80 lbs. I’ve lost about 50 lbs so far and would like to lose another 50 in my quest to become a hot mama.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Little 4-eyes

My little 4-eyes

Hearing your kid isn’t “perfect” is something that no parent ever wants to hear.  So when I began to notice Stella’s eyes crossing about 3 months ago, I told myself it was all in my head.  I mentioned it to my husband and he sort of agreed that maybe they were “a little” crossed.  Over the next few weeks I thought it was getting worse (or I had just grown more sensitive to it).  About a month later a therapist that comes to the girl’s daycare to work with another little boy left me a hand written note saying she had noticed her eyes were crossed and she would be happy to do therapy with her.  Shit.  That meant that it was not all in my head.  My perfect daughter actually has crossed eyes.

Fast forward to yesterday. We had Stella's ophthalmology specialist appointment. They brought us back and dilated her eyes.  It was interesting because the doctor showed us how if you put your hand in front of her crossed eye she doesn’t even notice, but if you put your hand in front of her straight eye she swats your hand away.  We came to learn that she is cross eyed because she is so far sighted she is essentially using only one eye to see and the crossed eye is trying to compensate.
The doctor looked in her eyes and got a prescription.  She also placed two lenses over my eyes to show me how she sees.  It broke my heart.  She literally can only see large shapes.  Everything is so blurry.
We took her prescription and ordered her glasses.  The doctor says the vision loss she has experienced is reversible at this time.  We hope to see her eyes getting straighter over the course of a few weeks.  We have a follow-up appointment in 6 weeks.  At that time if her eye is still crossed she will have to wear a patch.  And at the end of the road if the patch cannot correct it she will need to have surgery.
Here are the glasses we ordered:

I know it seems so insignificant, but my heart is breaking.  My perfect little girl has never really seen my face.  She will never look just like her sister because she will have glasses.  People are going to stare at her. Kids are going to take her glasses from her. Her script is so strong that her eyes will look HUGE.
These all seem like such superficial things to be worried about, but as a parent I can’t help it. 


  1. Aww poor baby girl :( And poor mom. I work (well, worked) in daycare and a little boy in my class had the same thing. But I have to say he looked FREAKIN ADORABLE in his glasses as Im sure Stella will too. I know it's got to be so hard, but just think it's so much better she is getting treated now before it got worse. All you can do is move forward and give her lots of hugs and kisses! It will all be ok :)

  2. Aw, I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this! Those glasses are SUPER F-ING CUTE though!!! And hopefully it will correct itself and they can make lenses that are featherwight these days for strong prescriptions. Still, your baby girl isn't physially perfect and that's tough to hear. I'm sorry.

    And HI! by the way! I can't believe how fast our girls are growing!!! Great to hear from you, even if it isn't the happiest news. =)

  3. I am sure that it was hard to deal with, but so glad that it was discovered early and hoping that there is improvement soon. And love the glasses! Adorable!!! Oh, and if you only ordered one pair, you may want to consider getting a second pair. Little ones that age tend to break them or they get misplaced. If you have two pair she won't have to go without them while a new pair is being made.

  4. Mama....I know.

    But please, try as hard as you can to remember this: she'll be able to see her mama now. And that's all that matters girl. She'll be able to truly see your face, and then try to hit you with all her might! I know the heartbreaking feeling, I do. I've felt it alot with Jovie, but how great it is that this can be reversed. So just know that by catching it now, she can see you, Randy, and Harper and that could be the world to her.

  5. Stay positive. If it does get to the extreme, my sister-in-law went through it, all the way to the surgery, as a young child and my mother-in-law described going through that...It's tough, but my SIL has no problems what so ever today and they (mother and daughter) did great! You would never know now!

  6. Not insignificant at all. As they say, "It's only minor when it's someone else's child". I do think she's going to look darling in her glasses though!

  7. :( So sorry. It broke my heart too when you put it like that (that she's never really seen your face). That was nice of the doc to let you see what she is seeing so that you could truly understand. Her glasses are cute and I hope you are able to correct it without surgery.

  8. She is going to look GORGEOUS in her little pink glasses. Now just try to keep little Miss Harper from getting jealous!