Another 2ww...it's just not fair

How many times must us IF girls face the 2ww.  I have finally gotten the glorious BFP...and now I have to go 2 whole weeks until I can see the bambino.  I have to wait 2 weeks to see if my baby has a heartbeat.  I have to wait 2 weeks to find out how many are in there.  I have to wait 2 weeks to know that I am really and truly pregnant and the embryo is where it is supposed to be and growing like it is supposed to.

It seems so unfair.  I've already put in my 2ww.

In the mean time I have been freaking myself out.  This morning I woke up with no symptoms of pregnancy at all.  No m/s (it's totally gone). my boobs barely hurt, and I haven't felt any RLP.  I need these if I am going to survive the next two weeks.  I don't even get any more betas over the next two weeks.

Seriously....how do you IF ladies do it!!!!  I am a nervous wreck!!!!!!!!!!

Beta #3

633!!!!!!!!!!!

I am absolutely over the moon.  The nurse said that I am all done with betas and we made our appointment for our first OB u/s for February 15th.  That date can't come fast enough!  I just pray that we have at least one perfect heartbeat where it is supposed to be!

Please be normal, please be normal, please be normal [updated]

 Ok, I need some advice (again). I promise I am not as neurotic as I seem. Last night while I was in bed I went to roll over onto my right side using my legs for momentum and had an excruciating pain that radiated from just right of my uterus all the way down my pelvis.  The pain stopped as soon as I stopped trying to roll over and was on my back again.  I experienced it again this morning when leaning over to put shoes on.  I haven't had any bleeding or spotting. It doesn’t hurt to push on it either.

I am obviously paranoid that there is something wrong.  If this was an ectopic pregnancy would that be a symptom or would it be too early to have symptoms of an ectopic pregnancy?  Any other ideas what it could be?  And should I seek medical attention for it?

I am crossing my fingers that it is just growing pains and I am just being a spas but 2 years and 30K later has made me kind of nutty!

Ok...my nurse just responded with the following and I feel MUCH better!!!

"Hey Emily,

I had that pain too in early pregnancy, and I’ve definitely heard that complaint before.  I think it’s relaxin combined with increased blood flow to the pelvis and the uterus and ovaries kind of shifting in new positions.  I think it’s muscular/skeletal pain since it’s associated with particular movements. Ectopic pain tends to be sharper, not positional and not relieved by anything.  I think if it increases in severity or duration you may want to become concerned.  I want to reassure you about ectopic though, in my experience the beta levels start lower and don’t go up as well as yours did.  Never say never of course though, so keep me posted on your concerns.  I take all this seriously, please don’t think you are bothering me!

J Nurse J"

Beta #2....

241!!!!!!!!!! 


I swear that was the longest 2 hour wait of my life!!!!!!!!

I am so relieved! That's a doubling time of 26.91 hours!

8dp6dt

***WARNING-Pregnancy announcement and symptoms mentioned.  I know how much I hated reading about this on other blogs when I wasn't in a good place. I will never forget how hard this journey has been and know that it is far from over!  I respect all of my fellow IF'ers.

I am still soaking in the fact that I am pregnant. I guess you could say I am cautiously optimistic.  As an IF patient its so hard to wonder "what if."  I am trying to bury that thought WAYYY back in my brain.

DH and I told our parents last night.  My mom cried and screamed and my dad just laughed.  If all goes well this will be the first grandbaby for my parents.  It will be the 5th for DH's side.  Hands down it was the best phone call of my life: )

Since yesterday I've had this dull nauseated feeling that I have chalked up to nerves.  It woke me up a few times last night.  It stuck around and seemed to get worse today.  On my way to my car this afternoon I yaked in my mouth at the sight of a frozen yogurt spilled on the floor of the garage because it looked like vomit.  I think it is WAYYY to early for morning sickness, but some of the girls on the message boards say they've had it this early.  I don't think I'm willing to admit to it quite yet.

My boobs also seem huge today and there are definitely bright blue veins popping out of them.  If I didn't know I was pregnant I would probably wouldn't think anything of it.  But it's interesting to see that it really is a symptom!

Tomorrow is beta #2.  I am praying for anything greater than 140!

I like to think that I have paid my dues and should have a completely uneventful pregnancy and take home a perfect bundle of joy in 252 days, but I am not stupid or naive.  So I ask the good lord to watch over me and this baby and carry us through safely!

7dp6dt: I was SOOOO wrong : )

I was waiting to post my 7dp6dt blog becuase I got a little surprise this morning.  I woke up this morning, thought "what the hell" and decided to pee on one of the 2 sticks I had left.  My thought was, at least then I'd only have 1 left for beta day.  Well after a shower I went to throw the stick away...because I just "knew" I wasn't pregnant.  I did a double take a low and behold.......

I seriously can't believe it.  I finally got to see the elusive unicorn...a positive HPT!

I called the clinic and they said I could come in for a beta today....

Today's beta- 70!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you god!!!!!!!!!!!

The cutest dogs ever!